The I Don't Know Way
By: Margaret Walker
During my lifetime I have had many questions floating around in my head. They seem to become the main feature and just as swiftly fade into the background of my old gray matter.
Perhaps some of you might even have experienced the same ones, or maybe you have an entirely different set of questions. Never-the-less I am willing to wager you have had them, especially related to those we love and who are no longer with us.
Here are a few of mine....
Do you worry about your health when you become the same age as a parent who died?
Do my parents know what kind of person I turned out to be?
Can they still enjoy the thoughts coming from me and the grandchildren?
Will I find my parents if and when I get to Heaven?
Are the spirits of our loved ones able to see how they influenced us?
Are they sad when I am sad? (I hope not)
If they could do it over, would they change anything about us as children?
Maybe these kinds of thoughts only become obvious the older we get. And maybe not. I cannot remember when I first had some of them, or any of them, I do know I wonder often about what they might think of how I turned out. And I hope if they know that they would be pleased.
Why does life have to be so complicated? Seems the older we become, the more we think. The more we think, the more life becomes complicated.
Sort of like a hamster on a wheel, going fast and faster and getting nowhere!
Well now, have I stirred up something in your head or maybe in your heart as you look back on what you have done and what you have not done and hopefully it will all be done with our parents approval!
